aka The day when nothing seemed to go right, and I just wanted to give up trying.
Do you ever have days where everything seems to go wrong and the slightest judgment by someone else sends you in a tailspin? That would describe my day Saturday. It was not pretty.
The Story Behind the Story
I woke up Saturday morning to my website being down…again. Over the last couple of months my server provider has had some MAJOR issues causing my site to be insanely slow or down altogether. It’s been quite frustrating to say the least.
Since I couldn’t accomplish my Saturday online to-do list as expected, I took the opportunity to go bicycling with my girls. Along the way my youngest got a flat tire. We had to call the hubs to bring the air pump. The only problem? He was in a meeting and couldn’t get there for some time. I was stuck again.
By the time we reached home it was lunchtime. While cooking I realized that the kitchen floor was very sticky. It must have been the result of breakfast–pancakes with syrup. Yuck. There was syrup remains all over the floor. So, while I cooked lunch, my oldest steam mopped the floor. Almost as soon as she finished putting the steam mop away my husband came home. The first thing out of his mouth? “Why is the floor so sticky?” Ugh. The steam mop didn’t work.
I got the steam mop out…again. Only after three attempts and one blow up at my husband for continually asking what was on the floor, I finally reached the bottom of the sticky mess.
I was done being nice.
Nothing seemed to be going the way it should. I couldn’t blog. I couldn’t bicycle. I couldn’t clean. I couldn’t even get the homemade French fries to turn out right. It was a not-so-fun-let-me-just-give-up-now kind of day.
That’s when I realized, two things–1) I needed to give my to-do list over to God and let Him take control of it, and 2) I needed to get a new web server because the one I currently have is making my life as a blogger very stressful.
Come to me, all of you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke on you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to carry and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28–30)
Why is it we sometimes try to do so much on our own that we forget that God is in control? After Saturday did I need to quit? Absolutely. Did I need to stop trying? Absolutely. Why? Because I needed to let God take the lead…in everything. In my home. In my family. On this blog. Everything. I needed to give Him that list of things that I just couldn’t hurdle anymore.
So what changes are a-coming?
Well the biggest change that you will probably notice, hopefully, will be a faster website and store upon the change to a new server provider. In the process you may notice a little housekeeping around the website. Have no fear. Good stuff is coming.
The other thing you may not notice, but I will, is my attitude. I’m learning more every day that it’s not about me at all, but really about Him who lives in me that matters. In the process I may let a few people down and that’s okay, because the peace I will have will be worth much more than the opinions others.
In the meantime, thank you for your patience. I look forward to sharing new and exciting things with you very soon.
How about you? You ever have a day where you reached your limit?
What did God show you as a result? I’d love to hear all about it in the comments!