Okay today it’s just me needing to vent. As my husband told me yesterday, “I think Murphy has moved in.” And he sure has. I feel like my stomach has been punched too many times to count. I feel like Job. Please Lord, have mercy.
The lowdown…last week we had a hailstorm…a very very bad hailstorm. Some quotes on the size of hail–5 inches. No joke. Needless to say we have LOTS of repairs to do. It could have been worse. We were fortunate not to have a leaking roof or dented cars but that’s about it. We need a new roof, garage door, windows, siding, fence…well you get the idea. Glad for insurance but still going to be a pain to get replaced.
On Saturday we went to help my 99 year old Papaw make the transition to a nursing home. To those who have had to help make that transition with someone, you know that is never, never fun. It was depressing for Papaw and crushing for me. I mean, how would you feel if you knew this was your final home…a quint one bedroom on a hall where at least one not-so-with-it person can be found sitting in a wheel chair asking you, “hey, where YOU goin” every time you pass by? No, the transition was definitely not enjoyable.
Next our two daughters along with myself have been sick since Sunday with some really bad colds. No sleep. No breathing. No time alone without someone clinging to you when you want to be in bed yourself…alone. You get the idea.
Then, yesterday we woke up and our computer crashed. Not just any type of crash mind you but the fatal kind of crash. The worst part about it?! I just discovered today that my backup drive backed up everyone’s documents and everyone’s files but MINE. What does that mean? It means the entire preschool curriculum I had been working on for the last year for Peanut…gone. Not just some it. Not just part of it. All of it. Gone. I think this is probably the worst of all that’s happened. I spent months creating it, researching, gathering resources and creating stuff. I have even mentioned how I had hoped to share it with you here on the blog once we got started this fall. Yeah…it’s probably not going to happen. And it just makes me sick. I have a paper copy of the outline but that’s it. That’s it.
Oh and did I mention that my daughter’s entire closet fell on top of me today?! Yeah, the book boxes up above. Ouch!
On top of that our eldest has decided she no longer wants to be potty trained (she wants to be like her 9 month sister). As such she has gone to the unthinkable…peeing and pooing on the floor. I know…seriously embarrassing…and gross!
If that doesn’t beat all, today’s party post went all weird. Can’t explain it but blogger must have messed it up somehow. There were four features. On my feed you can see four features. On my blogger editing window you can see four features. On my actual blog…only two. What gives! All that to say, next week we’ll be having double features–those from this week’s party as well as last week’s. After all, what’s a feature without a chance to be seen?!
I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to hit a sandbag. Pair this with two crying sick children and I’m on the brink of disaster. Oh I’ll recover. I know I will. With God, we shall prevail. But in the meantime, I appreciate you just letting me be real and vent. Sometimes when you read a blog you think that the author’s life must be hunky-dory or that they have it all together. So here’s to letting you know…I’m human too.
So what do I do when I get really down at times like this? I make a list of things I’m thankful for. You ever read The Baglady’s Guide to Elegant Living? Well if not, you should, but that’s beside the point. Anyway, in the book, Dina, through a character in her book, shares the concept of creating a daily thankful list. In the story, the list transforms the life of another character. I’ve found the same thing to be true in my life too. When I’m most down, if I find something to be thankful for, it always seems to help.
So today’s thankful list?
- My family was not harmed during the storm.
- I was not hurt when the closet collapsed.
- We have insurance that will pay for most, if not all of the hail damage.
- We did not have to buy a new computer. It had to be completely wiped and recreated, but that was still cheaper than the alternative.
- All my choir and blog documents were backed up online so they were not lost in the crash.
- While sick we have not had to miss any scheduled events other than church.
- The blog party was able to get up and running even though I did not have a computer. Yeah for post scheduling.
- The girls and my fevers have broken. Still lots of coughing and sneezing but at least no fever now.
- I have a hard copy of my preschool curriculum outline. If God really wants me to recreate the curriculum I could in time.
- I have a family that loves me very much.